Epson @ 15
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No, Clark, you’re missing the point of the question. Why do I keep that giant penny? Or old costumes, models of the Batmobile? Orphans are collectors, Clark. Losing so much… makes it that much harder to give things up.
I was never missin this…not on this life…pigain na ang wallet, wag pansinin ang mga walang kwentang tsismis…I am gonna watch raimund, buddy, marcus and ely…yup The Eraserheads are gonna do it one more time! This was the band that touched every student and yuppy in their days, singing lyrics that people could really relate to, wether you’re a rebel, a geek, a class clown, a jock or just one of em other guys. And would you look at the crowd, it was like australia’s Big Day Out! and the people…not ur average rock concert were you’ll find rowdy, reckless and craving for attention kids…of course me nahalo pa din…pero yuppie generation tlga ang makikita mo hahaha
Just like everyone, we bet on what the first song was, i personally picked Torpedo for some reason and then when the countdown ended…SA WAKAS! oh yeaahhhh! my friend mark almost one til he changed to Superproxy on the last minute!…It was Alapaap! complete with fireworks! hahaha!…once again everybody was back to their rebellious school days…especially with a line that i always sing out loud!…ANDAMING BAWAL SA MUNDO, SINASAKAL NILA TAYO…BUKSAN ANG PUSO AT ISIPAN…PALIPARIN ANG KAMALAYAN! We sang throughout the night, every song was like pages of a diary for people..cept for those na di alam lahat ang kanta hehe…but it was great, all songs of the 1st set. Inaantay nalang ang bets for last song…And Huling El Bimbo was a popular and very natural and lucrative choice if you and you’re barkada wanted to bet with money haha…but i wanted Minsan para madrama! haha…Pare ko was still much very anticipated too, and I very muched liked it if Poorman’s grave or waiting for the bus was there too.
But then the mood suddenly changed, marcus, raimund and buddy along with ely’s sister announced that Ely was rushed to the hospital and is not able to complete the concert…once again the crowd showed class and maturity this time not by their looks but by how they reacted…no Boos…no out of this world comments…and when asked for a moment of silence…we really gave it and prayed for front man pare ko ely. A very sad moment…this was a night I wanted to forget all the shit this world has to throw to, it was a time I reserved for myself amidst a very choatic phase…much like alcohol but way better. I even thought, was this a sign that maybe you could never back time, could never enjoy life fully..not even a reunion concert of the band that could save lives by merely singing what song you’re heart was singing. Yes, they may have even saved my life too in those days, this is what The Eraserheads was to me…
But when all stress cleared out of my head, I loved it…I’m proud I was there, I’m proud I bought a ticket, just to just even show appreciation to them, kung me pera lang ako bibilin ko yung lahat ng album nila on CD na binebenta dun..dhl ala na ung mga cassette dati! hehe. 1 set was awesome…the second would have KILLED! But still sulit na sulit sya…sayang lang talaga yung ibang song na inaabangan…graabee…KIKILABUTAN ka sa ibang kanta, you can even cry…ganun ang feeling ng andun…we sang through the night with those 4 and they delivered…especially ely…finished the whole set, played a little with the crowd even though he aint feelin a hundred percent at that time. Thanks Man Thank You very much! same goes for marcus,buddy and raimund…I am still gonna be there if you guys decided to do this again…and to those na malungkot pa din because di natapos ang concert…just think of ely singin this…PASENYSA NA huh huh huh huh…woah oh oh oh… even though you know that he does not have to say that…beacause it was still one of those happiest moment of your life…it was one of mine…and they could never take that Alapaap feelin from me.
After a long absence in the blog scene here I am still, drawing my own opinion… where I left off was still almost the same, very thankful for the happy moments and still struggling through growing pains. Symbolically for anyone to sing The World I Know to pour your heart out for your life’s work, David Cook did just that. The question for us is what does the world we know? Is it a happy, care free world, where we go out spend money we easily get? Or maybe you are one of those who play with people’s emotion, not caring if we hurt them, or even some men who change partner’s like monkey’s swinging branch to branch? Are you one of that who strive and work hard and somehow lives his or her career right and just slowly climbing that Personal or Corporate Mt. Olympus? Maybe a hopeless romantic who can’t find love in the right place and right time? Or are you just taking it easy, living life to the fullest of what it can give to you?
The world I know… and you might just know it too… very selfish, yes people this pessimistic bastard is once again disgusted. There are things you just don’t understand in life; there are very confusing feelings, of love of ethical proportions, and even karmic ones. I have fell victim to life’s awesome timing and people’s life long search for salvation. Once again the questions pour, why only now, why it had to happen, why can’t it be…all this… like questions in The New Radical’s song titled someday we’ll know, you still remember that? When you really think about it, all you can say is what a selfish world. A world you taken care of, A world you smile on even though it stabs you in the back, the world of course that hurts you until every possible drop of blood is shed. This world is what the people made it, they made wrong decisions for themselves and others just to make it more confusing also there are people who wouldn’t care for fellowmen just to quench their thirst for power, greed and lust. This world that made all those stupid rules, sects and all other beliefs that should have made life easier and should lead them to salvation, but despite it all, we just got complication and personal civil wars in each and every one of us.
When will we just realize that we live for each other too, this war might be over when it’s too late. And I am just one person screaming out the kind of injustice I am receiving from this world. The world I know is different is different from the world I knew, such simple things came when you are a child but as you grow up you see all the problems and selfishness has been there for a long time haunting each person that has fell victim to this. Losing their family, losing the love of their lives just because the world decided to be selfish with each other, just because we decided to be hard headed about our decisions and didn’t’ think of the people that would matter and could have an effect in our decision. Such sick, sad and cruel… this our world, The world you and I know.
It’s been almost a year and half since my last blog, geez! how I missed writing about my life and others, my last blog was way back October 2005, when I was just 1 month old at my first job at Epson
It’s been an emotional roller coaster since I came to this job, and like a riding a real roller coaster, you can get high, you can get nauseous…but still you’ll cherish the experience and want to ride again, at times you didn’t wanted the ride to stop. I met once again such amazing people and the not so amazing too…well actually there were the lowest of the lows, but what I experienced inside and outside of work were such treasure to even the heartbreaking ones. If only money and career didn’t matter, and if only some people here won’t bother me here at all about some things, then I would settle for this place. But a man’s got to do what a man’s got to do…this is for my future and for a chance to fix all the things in my life that I really need to fix. Sacrifice and change for the better has never been easy, but for me it’s almost a habit, just to cope with my world.
I had so much fun; I had so much pain…In the end I have to cope with bringing those memories to me, as you know happy and sad memories are both very painful when you get nostalgic about it. I’ll miss this place…a relatively nice workplace and especially its perks and the also the perks of having to work in
All the fun stuff I enjoyed lay outing and editing, all the road show event here in Manila and especially the provincial ones…namely Cebu, Davao and Lucena…I had the chance to visit those nice places and left such memories there. There were also numerous events to remember, the simple happy days at the office, the product launches, EPC Stock take were you get to pig out on free food! I even had the chance to give back to the unfortunate kids at Epson cares. I really had the chance to sort of get my life back, but not quite…friendship, camaraderie and love entered my life, but like human beings they aren’t quite really perfect although I really wanted them to…especially the love part…
How all people wished all the good times lasted a lifetime, but was not meant to be like that. Now I have to say good bye and thanks to the people for all the memories and hope we could still have more memories. No thanks to the 20 lbs I gained since working…damn!…gotta diet…gotta get my game back somehow..haha, just hope it’s not too late though. This blog has mixed emotions on it and as short as it is it took 1 and a half years to make and has plenty to tell and plenty not told…At work’s end does not mean At world’s end…there is still that long meandering road to tackle, I just hope I still can cover that road with all my strength.
If you have been familiar with the Pinoy music scene for quite a long time you’ll know the legendary Buloy character from a song by the band Parokya Ni Edgar. You might knew him as the good for nothing drunkard person who got kicked out of school, got kicked off the house and yet still manages to live on as long as there is alcohol to drink. Ah yes, most us drink to celebrate, others drink their problems, to forget it for a while.
Personally I learned to drink due to my heavy hitting problems, frustrations, despairs and like an office mate says…blah blah! Yeah it helps, you forget your problems for a while, share it to your friends, and these inuman sessions can really bond you because at times the truth about us comes out, true colors are exposed as we would say. Being drunk just gives you that high that you can spill it or spray it all out and lessens your trust issues cause at that moment you are all the same. Drinking for celebration is all the same, except that there is more laughing included.
Back to our friend Buloy, have you ever stopped to think that the person narrating in the song was actually the good for nothing one, or he didn’t really knew the situation Buloy was in. By the end of the song, in weird twist of fate Buloy decides to commit suicide because his beloved dog Morlock died, as a catholic I am not into Buloy’s decision to commit suicide. But understanding is the key, understanding before reacting. You may say that the decision was really low, I say…how many times have we quoted “Don’t judge a book by it’s cover” a zillion times I guess, but have we really done that? Once in a while we always do, especially when we let our anger take control of us. From a very angry person, I say Buloy was a victim.
Victim of a world who turned its back on him, the song might have narrated some major problems he encountered but I’m pretty much sure he received more than that few lines; the track was just above 4 minutes and cannot hold a lifetime of suffering. The narrator was right about some things, one is that he really liked Buloy because he can handle those problems, and in the end he thought that he was something until he committed suicide.
But I think the narrator was less of a friend. He was there at his drinking sessions and listening to his sad stories but was he there when not everyone was sober? Being a friend is a full time job especially if you have one like Buloy, Just being there, helping, and knocking some sense into him will help.
You see you don’t need alcohol to talk to each other about things, friendship requires trust, friendship requires another person…yes it require you, you and you, if you think you can’t be like that, you shouldn’t judge ones’ actions. Buloy knows, he knows that that no one really cared about him, his so called friends are just beer-mates who just waits for another drinking session to be held and hear the amusing but very frustrating stories of Buloy.
We will never really know Buloy’s problems but think of the person you know, who could be like Buloy, full of problems and frustrations. Others tend to hide it, even look happy and content with their lives although they are just waiting for an oncoming train to hit them just to end it all. Life can be so painful to others and it is a sick sad world we are living in.
To the people who aren’t like those mentioned should be thankful, because they are, these people give thanks to the everyday sunshine and breeze as their companion, to the smile and small talk they receive from the ones they admire, to the friends they talk to everyday, to the things he did good at for that day. These are the small things people tend to overlook and always wanted more, but to the Buloys of the world a chance to thank God about these things do not happen everyday.
You might have a thing or two problems in common with Buloy, maybe school problems, or maybe love problems and when you encounter these things it’s like the world owes it to you, Think of the people who almost ignores these problems because he has 3 more important problems to solve, that’s like having 5 downloads pending at a dial up modem and all you can do is pause the 2 downloads in order to download the 3 ones faster. Solving these problems takes more than waiting though, but like peer to peer downloads you need the people to finish it.
You see one man can only have enough, without any help from any friends a man looses his sense of self, just like a prisoner of war, until you pray for death every night. All the Buloys in the world need is your time, and your help, at least help him get past that one of five mountains he is going to climb and try not to make another one for him. These people may think differently but are still humans nonetheless, giving all the love and caring doesn’t require you money so why do we not give it to them. If no one does it’s gonna be you, and trust me you are going to be rewarded for that, in this life or the other.
Buloy had no one, he was not really a drunkard, the problems made him drink, by the time the effects of alcohol pass by, the sadness only became much worse because he was left all by himself, when the bottle empties, so does the room of so called friends, and so does his heart. Tears run over almost every night but still no answer. Buloy had no one, at least that’s how he felt…he had one thing…his friend / dog Morlock, Morclock was the one thing constant in his life, it never changed, it never betrayed, it stayed by his side.
Until it died, he felt he was really alone this time, he felt he could not go on, that was the final string, it could feel like you wanted to vomit all your guts out in disgust of life, as the song ends it says; “hoy, hoy Buloy para bang nalimot mo na ang iyong mga sinabi, nung ikaw ay buhay pa….” yes he did, he may have served as an inspiration to the people who lost hope in life, but too much was done to hurt him that he couldn’t even take his own advice. And in a sudden twist of fate and a very wrong decision, Buloy ended it all. Not even thinking if anyone is going to cry or be at his funeral.